i felt like i needed to do this since this is what i use to do when i would feel like this and i know no one reads this anymore so it's just for me so i don't care what the fuck i say. so basically life really is taking revenge on me for what i did to mark. that always fucking happens. it really does suck to be on the receiving end of that stick. and i truely understand what he meant by "i don't want to share you" but fuck i can't even say that back to him. because then i look like the controlling crazy ass girlfriend. this just really fucking sucks this is eating me up and i can't do a damn thing about it.